Friday, February 23, 2007!
HandWritten on; 12:35 AM
i feel totally drained. physically and emotionally. school and work is draining the hell out of me when it probably shoudnt. school is both boring and fun at the same time. with the hell lot of work and tests, they never fail to brighten up our weeks with stuff like talentime or whatever to look forward to (which i hope wont end). but when it gets down to WORK, oh my god. i never knew even BREAKS could be this boring seriously. like everyday you just go for lectures, tutorials daadeedum. that usual routine. ahh actually it has been like this for the past weeks, i dont know im just feeling emo today. stoopid! ah it's one of those days when everything seems to be getting in your way. maybe i just hate routines. and i seriously need more sleep.
oh and just the very THOUGHT about chem test next monday kills everything i have in me. chem test for goodness sake when i got like what, 10% for the first chem quiz?? at this rate im going to be half dead by the end of term one. school is so draining that the cny 4day break never felt shorter. it never felt so damn short. seriously if not for the fact that i would have to change class and like mix around with totally new people and just crash an already bonded class just like that, i would want to switch to arts. arts is damn tempting. imagine ending early everyday. and IMAGINE NO PRACTICALS. NO TWO-HOUR LONG PRACTICALS. omg. thats totally the catch. but as usual i wont have the guts and i wont do it. switch combi i mean. STUPID.
some stoopid kind of depression sunk into me just a few hours ago haha i dont even know why but all of sudden i just think about stuff and i feel so loser. for no reason. how stoopid can this get. then i called up wanteng and talked for a long time. about random stupid stuff. i miss wanteng ): we were saying actually 403 was quite a good class. despite all its many many cliques but somehow most of us always managed to get along perfectly fine. went beauty world with wanteng and huiping today to buy the new uniforms. hope we all look nice in them (: and i really enjoyed spending time with them. i miss anyi bunny eunice tooooooooo and yueyang and jiayuan. suddenly after 2 years of being in the same class, now we are so much more excited when we see one another in the corridors or anywhere. i miss the times when everyone were all still together. i wont call it innocent, but just like the feeling of not knowing much about anything and feeling very peaceful at heart. that very peaceful kinda feeling.
after the uniforms wanted to go back to nanyang for the juniors. but the beauty world aunty was so inefficient we spent quite some time there and nanyang being nanyang, has to lock up and stuff like that so i kinda missed the juniors. saw xueen though <3 AH AND YOU KNOW WHATTTTT. I REALLY REALLY SERIOUSSSSLYYYYY MISS NANYANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.